Closing in on the final few months of my college life. I cannot believe it has gone so quickly. London is now my new destination. My plan is to be moved into a flat in london before 2007. I graduate from here in July and Tony (my partner) and I will then figure out when we will have saved enough money and when he can transfer jobs. I'm working on being able to live without worry because I know that I enjoy the spontaneity of life when I don't fight the current and let life take its course. So far, I have a bit of a biography started in my head if anyone wants to start an 'E True Hollywood Story'. Basically, I grew up in a very conservative environment with a loving family who took care of me and met all my physical and psychological needs. I found great stability in the church and followed a Southern Baptist Lifestyle. Always with an affinity towards performance and the stage, I admired great actors of film because the stage was too far away for me to travel to. Great Actors of my early memory: Tom Hanks, Morgan Freeman, Robin Williams, and several others. A film that always reminds me of my childhood fanasies and hopes of one day being on the screen is 'Hook'. From an early age I've had support and recognition for having a particular knack for stage pressence. So I went to a High School renouned for its exemplary theatre class. Whilst there I performed in everything play produced. It was in my Junior year of High School when I first tasted the desire to study theatre exclusively in the United Kingdom. As I got closer to graduation my dream came true after my mother flew over with me to audition at the desirable Royal Welsh College of Music and Drama. The month after I auditioned, I received written word that I was accepted onto the course that began in the Autumn of the following year. The ecstasy drove me through to the end of my high school life. During my final year of high school my ground-shaking realization of my sexuality changed my beliefs drastically. All my life I bought into the dogmatic balderdash that homosexuality is an abomonation, a sin that must be repented of. Since 'coming out' I've questioned much of Southern America's Christianity, and have adopted a much more liberal view of my faith. I will never throw out the teachings I've learned that support morality and human equality. So am I a Christian? I think so, and frankly, I don't care if you don't. So, now in my third and final year at the Royal Welsh College of Music and Drama, I've trained more extensively than I think I ever could have in an American university. British drama training has a reputation of being the best in the world, and because the culture here still embraces the theatre, I see the reputaion as being upheld. I've made friends with people I would have never imagined. I have also fallen in love with a beautiful French man. Tony and I will be moving to London together this year. I have never felt for anyone what I feel for him. Our pasts, cultural identities, callings in life, and languages are completely different from each other, yet somehow that brings us to love each other all the more. In our case, opposites definitely attract. Because of this love, I will not be moving to my home country anytime in the forseeable future. I want to start a life here for now. Tony and my relationship is recognised here as being as legitimate as a relationship between a man and a woman, whereas in America it is not. I would love to move back to America someday. There's simply no way of knowing right now what will happen in my future other than the fact that I don't have to face it alone. I'm slightly scared of the future, but only scared enough to propel me on to be successful. I'm actually very excited about the months to come. Very excited indeed.

Here I am in a weird limbo of sorts. I've just performed in four showcases: one in Cardiff, one in Manchester, and two in London. So far, half of my colleagues have had a phone call from an agent even if they have no interest in that particular agent. It's just good to have interest, huh? Well, so far, I've come up dry. Dry as a lizards decaying skeleton in the Sahara. But our head of acting assures us that some established agents like to take a couple of weeks to think things over and then show a little interest and come see the upcoming show. So there is still hope! Now I don't mean to sound depressed, down-hearted, or otherwise melancholy, but it is scary when you know some of your other friends have spoken to some very good agents already and some already have auditions or have been invited to script readings. Now comes the part where I risk sounding like an egotistical big-head... I know I have a particularly exceptional talent for acting. I'm simply annoyed that I didn't have anyone call yet, but I know that the showcases are not actually about the acting. You have two minutes and twenty seconds to show yourself. Most agents are looking for a face to put in their books that they don't already have. If you act like Richard Burton reincarnate, they don't necessarily give a toss if you look like somebody they already have on their books. So I am a very happy man despite the lack of immediate response. I have rehearsals for the musical coming up on Monday. I'm most excited about my upcoming role as Bobby in Sondheim's "Company". It is my chance to shine. More agents come to see the final show than to any of the others combined, simply because it is the show that follows the showcase. So they see all of our faces in the showcase and can then come and see if we can act or if our successful two minutes and twenty seconds on stage was just a fluke. Whoever hasn't heard the soundtrack of "Company" should go out now and listen to it at least three times in a row. I say that because the first time I heard music from it was sometime last year and I didn't originally give it the time of day, but soon, very soon, it grew to be one of my favorite musicals. Having the lead in it also makes it high on my list of fancied pieces of theatre. Soon I'll be sacheting around a grand stage singing of loneliness and of a hope to find the woman who will bring me happiness and everything else that comes with a relationship. Bobby is the only single man amongst his married friends. He spends the play observing his friends' ups and downs and we get a lot of great, complex, and stirring music throughout. So I have a whole deck of cards up my sleeve. I'm getting ready to jump right into the middle of professional British theatre. Stand back; I don't want this to get messy!

The final two performances of "The Architect" are upon us. What an amazing play by Scottish playwright, David Greig. I've taken so much away from playing the role of Billy it will be a shame to see the end of the show, and yet I cannot complain because I have a couple of very exciting weeks coming up. Next week I tour across the UK with my course mates performing a showcase of our talent. We are performing monologues and duologues in front of agents and casting directors to hopefully land some jobs in the near future. The week following we begin rehearsals for "Company" by Sondheim in which I will be playing the lead role, Bobby. For the past three shows, I've had to play English characters and therefore had to do different accents. Finally, I get to play an American! "Company" is an amazing musical written by Stephen Sondheim in the '70s. We are setting our production in the '70s so the costume are rumored to be great! My plans are to stay over on this side of the ocean for a while, so hopefully the agents will see something in me and I can sign with one of them. I'm hoping my boyfriend Tony will come around to the idea of moving to London since that is where most ov the work in theatre is. Other than that, I don't really have too much else to report. I very happy right now and excited to be doing what I love. x